Bullying Put Me On The Path I AM on Today

Self-esteem, confidence, trust, hope, knowing, and SELF REALIZATION, isn't something I was born with. Not a chance. I didn't just get to this point in my life, and feel the way I feel today. NO WAY! I was the pudgy tomboy that loved to play sports with the guys, I always excelled at sports, but not really well liked by the mean girls. That being the case, BULLING was a normal thing for me in school. I was always picked on in class and during recess for being liked by the teacher, {teachers pet} or because the guys chose me on their teams, or because I did my homework, and didn't get in trouble. I was shy, didn't like looking people in the eye, afraid that it would draw attention, and I would have to fight in the girls bathroom. That too became an issue, because I was so afraid to get beat up, I wouldn't go to the bathroom, causing me to have bladder infections, and issues, even in Jr. high, I hated changing out, since the girls would just barge into the showers and start to make fun of those of us who just wasn't like them. Besides those awkward moments, the list goes on. If finally got to the point that I just was so afraid and hated to go to school. The teachers really didn't do anything about the BULLING, back than and the admin, did stupid things like, if a person DEFENDED THEMSELVES, they got detention too. I grew up not believing that adults especially those who are suppose to help, really did help. I basically lost faith in my parents and those around me for not empowering me or supporting me in moments that could have been really detrimental to a young woman's life. My parents didn't go in and confront the teachers, about the issues, and I grew up feeling that if I would fight back I WOULD BE PUNISHED TOO. I'm not a fighter by nature when it comes to confrontational situations, but as I grew up, I realized that if I didn't fight for myself no one was going to do it for me. When it was time for me to attend high school, I was just paralyzed with fear, since in the 80's the school I was to attend was just overwhelmed with gang related fighting issues, and I just didn't know where to begin to explain that. BUT WHAT WAS TRULY AMAZING WAS MY BODY DECIDED TO RETALIATE FOR ME. I started to break out in hives, have anxiety and refused to go to school. My mom, had to listen at this point and petitioned to get me a district acceptation to another school, and so I moved on. That was the turning point in my life, I felt comfortable, SAFE, and most of all I found a part of me that was missing. THAT'S WHEN I MET HERB ISHIBASHI SR. THE OWNER OF PHYSIQUES GYM IN HILO HAWAII, Mr. Ishibashi, his ohana, and the guys at the gym taught me how to lift weights, the old school way. How to push past feeling scared, uncomfortable, and most of all HOW TO FACE MY INSECURITIES. Yes, I still had them, because my body was different, I looked different, I was never going to be the size 2 BARBIE, or cheerleader, not to mention I couldn't fit in the clothes for girls my age. AND MY FATHER, UNCLES & MOM, HAD AN IDEA OF WHAT A GIRL WAS SUPPOSE TO LOOK LIKE AND BE LIKE. {I was always teased about my weight, called Fat-so, my mom and aunts always talked about having a flat stomach and being a certain way. They'd say I had arms like legs and thunder thighs, by the soccer assistant coaches.} What I learned by being in the GYM everyday, was I had a place that I could call my own. I was safe. I was appreciated. I was strong, I was accepted for me, and I was empowered no matter what life threw at me, I could handle it. Life is like lifting, you INHALE, AND YOU EXHALE, YOU WAIT FOR THAT MOMENT, AND YOU PUSH THROUGH IT, WITH FOCUS, AND TRUST THAT YOU WILL GET THROUGH IT, AND IF YOU NEED HELP, YOU GOT THOSE REALLY CARING PEOPLE THAT WILL ALWAYS HAVE YOUR BACK. I will always be grateful for those long gym days, frenz met, lessons learned and most of all for being able to do what I love to do today. BECAUSE I TRULY BELIEVE, THAT IF THOSE THINGS DIDN'T HAPPEN TO ME, I WOULDN'T BE WHO I AM, AND HELPING PEOPLE WHO TRUST ME WITH THEIR HEALTH AND LIVES. I was able to turn a negative, into a positive, BUT IT TOOK SOME TIME TO REALIZE THAT I HAD THE POWER ALL ALONG! What I've learned about BULLING, is it's a painful thing on all levels, but just remember if you're reading this, that when a person BULLIES YOU, really inside they are so afraid themselves, so insecure themselves, so HURT themselves, for whatever reasons that you will never know, that they retaliate at life, and you're just the one in front of them pushing at their wounded buttons. This is not an excuse for them. it's a statement for you to see and know that there's more going on and that the ISSUES IS NOT YOU. IT'S IN THEM. Puakea Soul Fitness Hawaii for the Body, Mind and Spirit Resolution Gym #bullying #youhavethepower #standupandfightforyou #gotyourback

Exercise & Breathing

Procrastination & Excuses will only lead to Preventable Medical Age Related Issues

You Really Must Not Matter.... Here's the deal, everyone can find an excuse for doing or not doing something in their lives. It's human nature to procrastinate on the things we don't want to do, or are told we should or have to do. I totally understand. BUT, the bare bones truth is, YOU CAN'T KEEP LYING TO YOURSELF. sooner or later it will catch up to you, and than you'll go into the self punishment mode which will only make things worst. STOP THE VICIOUS CYCLE AND TAKE STOCK OF YOUR LIFE NOW. You're probably wondering what the hell is she yakking about now??? I'm talking to you, YOU, the one that keeps putting off your well being for what you believe is beneficial for everyone else., your kids, your spouses, your frenz, your boss, work, the dog, cat, the charity work, whatever.... human nature is to find whatever excuse it is to not do what we know we should to make our lives better. There's many reasons for that, and I totally get it. But if you don't know where to start, what to do, or are afraid, hey, that's only natural too. Ask for help... life is about new experiences and learning. But here's the low down on that painful truth, if you keep saying you don't have time to get healthy, eat right because it's too expensive, the classes are at the wrong time, the gym is too busy, I don't like the people there, it's not my thing, a trainer is way too expensive for me to afford, or better yet my kids are more important and their games are at the same time, so I just can't do it....Well sister, think of this, DO YOU WANT TO BE AROUND TO SEE YOUR KIDS GROW UP, HAVE HAPPY LIVES, HAVE KIDS OF THEIR OWN??? DO YOU WANT TO LIVE INTO YOUR 90S, BEING INDEPENDENT AND DRIVING YOURSELF AROUND? DO YOU WANT TO STILL HAVE GOOD HEALTHY SEX YOUR LIFE? DO YOU WANT TO AGE GRACEFULLY WITH A HEALTHY GLOW???? Well than, you better get cracking.... time waits for NO ONE, keep using that excuse, and you're going to fine yourself running out of time. It's never too late, but, why start when something is broke, start now to prevent damage from even happening, and if it does, because life does what it does, you'll be better equip to handle it. ~ PK

Really, I Get YOU....

I love my job, I really do. But there are those very awkward moments when I'm speaking to someone, and they're asking me for help, they're giving me their life story, and why they have to workout, and at the same time they're telling me how busy they are. How they don't have the time, how they only got x amount of time, how far it is, how they're not gym people, how this, how that and at the same time eating a bunch of crap in front of me, and saying they shouldn't be.... AND THE LIST GOES ON.

It's in these moments, my inner voice just can't shut up. I totally understand where a lot of you are coming from. Really I do, I'm busy too. Many of you think, just because I'm a trainer, I live at the gym. This is so not TRUE. I actually have another job, a family that depends on me and I am a care provider for my disabled husband. So yea, I get it. I also can attest to the motivations of having to get healthy, I, myself was very ill a few years ago, and being athletic all my life, I knew I had to get off my ASS, NO MATTER WHAT IT TOOK AND GET MYSELF MOVING, EATING ACCORDING TO MY BODIES DEMANDS, AND DETOXING FROM UNHEALTHY PEOPLE. So, when you are basically asking me for my advice, saying you want help, but at the same time shooting down every solution I'm offering you regarding your dilemma, the POINT IS, YOU CAN LIE TO YOURSELF, BUT PLEASE DON'T WASTE MY TIME.

Here's the deal, YOU'RE NOT READY to do what you're claiming you want to do. You're using every reason to not get started towards your LIFE GOALS, you're self-sabotaging yourself, and you're basically trying to tell me you know everything about what you have to do, but ain't doing it. AND AT THE SAME TIME TELLING ME HOW TO DO MY JOB. Really!!! Firstly, it's free advice, you asked, I answered. {I usually charge for that, and if you can't afford my one on one, I offer classes.} Secondly, you're not a lone, there's more going on inside of you, and I know that, YOU know that, and many of us have to accept change in order to heal, move forward and live. Thirdly, when you're really ready I'll be here, just ask. Fourthly, only you can make the choice, but the real beginning starts when you take a good honest look at yourself and realize YOU, AND ONLY YOU, CAN MAKE THE CHANGE. Fifthly, doing what I do is not as easy as you think. I don't just jump up and down, curl some dumbbells and squat my ass off all day. NOPE, I care about my clients, every single one of them. I take their concerns personally, and they trust me. It's the human element that is why I'm here. SO YES I CARE, BUT YOU NEED TO CARE ABOUT YOU FIRST BEFORE I CAN EVEN BEGIN TO HELP YOU.

Soul Fitness Hawaii, I'm a Work In Progress

The Greatest Art Form in the world is the art of self~transformation... I'm a Work in progress. #fitness #motivation #women #soulfitnesshawaii #exercise

POWERFUL, PASSIONATE, THE WILL OF A CHAMPION....Must

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=485825621526879&set=vb.190385971070847&type=2&theater I so love Facebook, and the amazing people and frenz that we meet, and get to know. Some post the most amazing information. Some just post, but every once in a while we come across a post that STOPS YOU DEAD IN YOUR TRACKS AND MAKES YOU LISTEN, NOT WITH YOUR EARS, BUT WITH YOUR MIND, HEART AND SOUL. The kind that brings tears to your eyes for all the most positive reasons, and stirs the passion in you may be long dead, becuase someone told you it wasn't real, that may be you're just a dreamer, and or you're too old to follow your dreams. WELL MY FRENZ, THIS IS NOT THAT KIND OF POST, THIS ONE WILL GIVE YOU WINGS TO PICK YOUR HEAD UP AND FIND THAT PASSION AGAIN AND DIG SO DEEP THAT PAIN DOESN'T MATTER, AND THAT HOPES & DREAMS ARE ALL IN YOUR HANDS. YOU MUST WATCH, AND SHARE. Found it on FITNESS GIRL'S POST, CREDIT HER PAGE. http://www.soulfitnesshawaii.com

2014 Change We Must

Sticking with the same workout program every week, month, year, ain't going to get you nowhere. Lifting the same weights, doing the same exercises, eating the same foods, and you keep asking me why you ain't making gains, or loosing weight..... Better reassess your personal goals, and stop looking at someone else in the mirror. Put your game face on, plug in those ear buds, or get the old school big ones, drop the cap to your forehead and leave everyone at the gym door, THIS IS YOUR TIME, MAKE IT HAPPEN, CHANGE IN ON THE WIND.... Oh, and by the way, when in the gym, and you're feeling distracted, tell you what bring your journal with you notes on your goals, take a look, make it a MANTRA to keep yourself ON YOU. So what if the chick next to you is lifting heavy, so what if the other one has some wild tights on, and so what if there's cattiness in the gym. SHUT IT ALL OUT AND DO YOU. ~ Because in a few weeks, you're going to feel stronger, you're going to start to look tighter, your body fat is going to start to drop, and your energy level is going to go through the roof.... LET'S SET IT OFF.... the fitness classes can only take you so far, your little treadmill workout ain't going to do it.... IT'S TIME TO GET MEAN & LEAN AND TRAIN NOT JUST EXERCISE. ~ Soul Fitness Hawaii for the Body, Mind and Spirit if 2014 matters to you. ~ PK Soulfitnesshawaii.com Inspirational Quot by Brian Tracy ~ Muscle & Fitness HER'S magazine